This past weekend was an interesting one.  On Friday I decided to communicate to George and let him off the hook so to speak.  The conversation did not go as planned or how I thought it would have.
Here is my email to him.

After my Grandfathers funeral I decided to perform a test.  I wanted to see who would blink first.  Me or you.  Would you reach out and phone me or stop by or send a card or something.  I felt over the years I was the one initiating the call and wanted to see if "Dad" would. 
 
So almost 2 years later and still no communication.  That's cool.  No big deal.  People are busy.  But in the back of my mind for many years now I always wondered.  Why is there something weird between us?  Why dont you call?  Why dont you take an initiative in getting to know who I am or who I became?  I understood why you did not when I was young, you were young too.  Rebellious, searching and trying to find yourself.  I thought you changed when you met Ruth and her family.  Especially when you had 2 kids with her.  Wow.  There is my "Dad" finally getting a head on his shoulder and doing what he did not do with me with them.  Cool.  Good for you. 
 
But still, why not reconnect?  I am successful.  Wife.  3 kids.  I am your first born...ahhh...now I know.  I am not your first born. 
 
I finally asked mom what the deal is.  She told me.  Everything makes sense.  No more lying or pretending needs to happen anymore.  I really dont care what the reasons or thoughts were back when I was born.  Luckily I had my mom and grandparents that helped me throughout my life to shape me to become the man I am today.
 
I reached out to Bill (my biological father).  He is out in Vancouver WA.  We are going to try and connect and see what happens.  Get him up to speed on all that happened over 34 years. 
 
If I sounded harsh I apologize.  I am not mad at you.  You thought what you were doing was right back in '73. 
 
In any case, maybe we can have a beer one day and put this behind us. 
 
Your move.

The response back was a little too intense to share, but definitely not the relief I thought it was.  He through my mom under the bus.  He was mad at my insults toward him did not answer why not reaching out to me.
A few more emails exchanged.  My intensity level grew a bit since I am not mad at him and just want to know why he was never around.  I did not know he was NOT my dad.  I just assumed he as a lousy dad.  I guess he did not want to hear that.  I guess he is a good dad to his 2 kids + 3 step kids.  I guess he thought he was not needed.
We spoke on Saturday and nothing really was accomplished.  He had no answers.  Kept bringing up the past.  He could not answer my question of why have you not contacted me in 2 years.  I told him I am not mad at him just disappointed in how all of this turned out.  My mom came over and my only comment was I should have known a long time ago.  I kept being disappointed by George time and time again and there was a reason for it but it was not shared with me.
I told George that it is his move.  If he wants a relationship then fine.  If not, no love lost.  I am moving on.